Letter to Lord....

There are questions about His existence. But no one could stop building lakhs of temples throughout the globe. Why? What is there in the lifeless idol? I tell you. It is a simple human feeling, called Trust. I am no one to generalise though, but still there is something which I wanted to get framed. No, not His photo, but my feelings for him, even when I shouted and said "I do not trust you any more." This is for you my God. 

I looked at you suprised for my anniversary gift. Then only I decided I will never trust you again. For a fraction of second, the respect turned to hatred. I was aback. How you could be so mean. I shouted, I cried, and I requested. Things still happened. Then why I went to you that D-Day? Prayed, for the first time, knowing nothing about what I am doing or what I am supposed to do. I was thrashed. It was unimaginable for me to live that night and the nights to come. I was suprised Lord, you gave me so much courage and patience. I am living the nights now, without a single drop of tear. Though with a heavy heart I grab the pillow sometimes, still in the morning see my mobile for the message, or at times I avoid the topic of getting married, but Lord, I still laugh. And I am normal. Thank You.

I never came across the courage you gave me when I took my grandpa in the hospital. And the best part was, I was seating next to his dead body without my wet eyes.I moved out of the room when they asked, just to let them carry him out from the house forever. Oh Lord, thank you for standing by my side that day. Though I was shocked, pained, thrashed, but I lived. Trust me, today I am surviving in the absense of the person who was my back bone. All because of you Lord. 

My emotions always blamed you to be unfair. You remained quite. But never failed to stand by this stupid child of yours. I always kept searching for a person who will understand me,  knowing and tolerating all my stupidities, will always be there with me quietly. Today I understood. How stupid I was that I kept searching, without realizing, it was actually you who made my life a roller coaster. You always treated me like an infant. You threw me up in the air, made me realize the pain and fear. But you were always there to hold me back. Lord, I should have kept the faith and laughed and smiled the way. But I failed. Still you are with me.

I am sure whatever will come in my way, I will be able to overcome. Only because of you Lord, today I know I can stand out in the toughest of position. You are a love, a guide, a friend and yes, you are the ultimate inspiration.

Thank you Lord.