Change is inevitable. May be this is the only thing which is constant. But what if someone whats to change the change?

I was in a habit to shout my ego. I used to call him an Idiot. My words... last words. U will not come.... U will have to. I JUST WANT THIS. No Sunday in room. Hang out with friends. Dont u dare to say me anything.

But time changed. Today I am clueless what to do when I am bored. STD lines most of the time betrays. Online fights scares me, as I cannot see him in person just after that. I dont want sundays, as sundays kill me. I am happy to work, only if I could love it. Time changed itself, time changed me. Nobody betrayed me, no body said anything. But still, I am missing my freedom. I don't feel anyone just walking my side when I work, the thing which I used to feel in college when he passed by me. I don't feel the thing to look good, because here I am not standing with him. Time changed me from a kid who used to had crushes every now and then to an young lady who is into a steady relationship. Change has changed me to think mature. The things which nobody taught me, now I know, because time demanded. I am practical, now the fairies of my dreams have disappeared. Now I don''t believe that sun and moon are two best friends, one does the duty of the other when the other feels asleep. I don't believe that God has handed over me to my mom, or my mom picked up only me from hospital just because I smiled to her. I understand that today if I cry, I will have to buy the chocolate of my own. So, the laziness to cover the distance till the chocolate shop stops me from crying. 

I am no more a child who waits long to see Saurav Ganguly complete his century, and shed tears with his wicket. But I eagerly wait to hear the sound of the bike, and to run out to make sure that he is there. I don't like to race my computer cars and hasten up to finish up my dinner. I like to wait for the phone calls. I don't like to wait in the interview que.I wait by the road side just to make him pick me up. I don't wait to get wet in the rain anymore, because I cannot afford to miss a day in office. I am bound to like it.

Change changed me. But how can I change my change?