A letter to My Room

Faded lush green is the color you are covered with.
There are dirty patches here and there in your body.
You are so down to earth that I can not hang my ceiling fan.
But still, you are my cutest possession, your are MY ROOM.


The giant box and the fridge had a fight one day,
So they stay in 90 degree separation.
Now you will ask me what was the reason?
Oh c'mon, dont you see their size differentiation?
My fridge has an inferiority complex.
And you see my little red cup board. 
She is my tidy darling.
She remains quite, thats why stand still in the extreme corner.
Nah nah, not alone.
Bogy biggy seats at the top of it, covering all the place.
He protects her.
Otherwise, where else my biggy will get place either !
I allow only Poku and Koku with me in the bed.
Areehhh.... My daughter and son.
Doremon stays awake atop the water filter,just beside the bed.
My bed, it covers most of you.
My supporter, my friend.
And the wind chime you see, hanging just above the top  of my head when I sleep?
Its he. You know who ( *shy*)
Aha.... c'mon, I imagine to be.
He daily wishes me a lovely day, 
And kisses me when I get up.
Yah, thanks a lot to your nature of being down to earth.


My dear room.
That day I thought of changing you.
Though that now you have started smelling of him.
You reminds me some wonderful moments.
And searching for some new one, I roamed around here and there for quite a long time.
I was in front of South City, when suddenly I saw a fight.
The guy slapped the gal in public.
I was shocked.
And amazed. How come!!!
On the way, it started raining, and I realized it is the same place where we smoked.
I was amazed. How come!!!
I was way back home.
I heard the evening prayer from the temple.
We have been there right at that time only.
Again I was shocked. How come!!!
I came to you. 
And I remembered, here we had laughed together, smiled together, fought together, loved together and promised to be together.
Not now, but always.
You saw it, you witnessed it.
Who else on earth did except you?
You never put conditions on me to be with you. 
I can be with you whenever I want.
You never asked me to stop my tears or flow my emotions.
You were always there by my side.
No complains, no demands.
Dont you think, you are my best friend?
No. Best friends betrays.
Then you be my just friend.
And we will be always happy together.
I love you my greenish dirty messy room.
And I love to be with you.

A new morning......

With the a most delightful heart and a very open mind, a very very great morning to all of you.


Yes, a new me, a new thinking. A new wave and a new upbringing.  Who said, to be a best friend, you need to have bunch of hang out partners and who said, to guide, you need to have a follower? A guide like a dad, a philosopher like a friend can all me found out in a single person, who stands by you with all your odds, knowing probably you are the worst choice, but still being proud, that you are his choice. Me too. A proud girl with a proud feeling of being someones life, his hope and his expectations. 


The morning came up with a wonderful blow, never experienced before. It all happened in a single night. With fight, with tears, with love and with togetherness. May be this is what is the warmth of a relationship is all about. 

• Quite house.
• Noising fan.
• Sweat sweat........yyaaakk!
• My disco net connection. (Thank you Sunayana for linking the word disco with interrupting network.)
• No use of being online though, blog is the only point of attraction.
• My late night buddy's net too is doing hip hop. (Uff you Mr. Laughter)
• Feeling the hunger of pasta with red sauce. (Though no idea, never tasted before--- I swear, these pathetic urges come at pathetic times only.)
• I got up, though the mosquito net obstructed, I overcame (yeeii)
•  Washed my face with fridge chilled water (assured no one is awake to catch me --- I am suffering from cold)
• Took out an apple (you always say -- take fruits... see, I am so obedient.)
• Went to bed and logged on ur account.
• You are planning to go home next week???? Seriously?????? Why?????????
• I logged out and went back in my account.
• How long the clock hands ran, no idea.
• Suddenly remembered I am online, Mr. Laughter sent me many beautiful pictures.
• Am I thinking something.
• Drank water.
• Chatting with Bijit da, Manoj Da, Sumi, Durga Bhaiya, Umanand ----- RSG ------ Guwahati ----- GNN ----- Frontier -------- we four ------- you ------ our relationship --------- why are you so serious about going home????????
• Headache.
• Drank water -------- again ------- aggaaiinnn (mumma see... I have finished the bottle.)
• Threw away the stupid tasteless apple..... why you didnt smsed me today when you promised we will be together always.
• Switched off the light.
• Hugged granny.
• Tried to cry hard........ failed again.
• Why you going home?
• I wana talk to aunty.... bhabi...... bhaiya....... can you wife alone has the right to do so?
• Can we be friends?
• Cant???
• Can.
• No ways...
• Yes... why not... we are the perfect match. I feel good when u are around.
• Damn it will spoil your married life.
• We can be in touch... you are my guide.
• Touch will bring emotions... againnnnn....... no emotions plzzzzzzzzzz
• Why are you going home? You will soon marry na.....

Day flashed to another. I wished I could hug u. I dont know whether I will ever see you again.

I was standing in the balcony when I found a shooting star. I wished and became happy that this wish will be fulfilled. But when I opened my eyes, I saw it was a plane. An aircraft, which was carrying so many wishes in it. It is always busy. So it is not possible for it to listen to my tiny stupid idiotic wish. I turned around. The leaves of the coconut tree was dancing in the breezing rhythm.  And so was the clothes which our neighbor has forgotten to pick up and are still hanging in the rope. Suddenly some music hit my ear and the song "Jhonka Hawa Ka" mesmerized me. Woo... what a combo. My terrace just became a wonderland within few minutes. I saw my next door twins kids playing in their bed from the window. I saw my parents chatting down stares. Such a happy environment all around. My eyes closed, and I felt you. Lying in my lap right under the open sky. Its an evening.  All quite, all silent, and we were all what we needed. You are sleeping. Why? Because for you, you are on the best place on earth, in the best position a man can ever ask for. No words. Only feelings. Love all around. 

I opened my eyes and it was an open sky in front of me. Dark night. You were not with me.

I am angry. I am angry on you. I wana cry hard. I know it was my fault. But dont I have the right to push my worries on you? Why you need to leave me all alone. Why damn. I know. Lets stop here. Something is wrong within me. Was my decision right? 

Yeshhh... I am back.

Here I am back. I had lost you dear blog, but see, I have finally recovered you from the hands of the villain "Google". And thanks Mr. Laughter, for whom I got the guts to put down my thoughts in the words again. Again in the night, inside the mosquito net, I am suffering from huge summer. I hate this weather like anything. Specially because I keep on feeling thirsty. Even though I gallop gallons of water, I still not fill fulfilled. And yes, this is where my problem lies. Though I get gallons of love, somewhere I fail to accept it. And when it is gone, it is again gone forever.


I am back in mood. My mood.... forgot??? The mood with frustration, the mood with sorrow, the mood with complaints???


Yes. I am back with the same old story. But yes, now I have a wonderful love story in my kitty. With is again, unsuccessful. People say, broken hearts can only create. See, its true. Today I have a broken piece pinching me tough, that is why again I am creating my post. I saw him, hugged him tight, and just let him go. I came back home, thought, I need a medium to get out of it. I switched on the TV. I started cooking. I washed my clothes. Nah. Nothing could replace him. I called. But he is still the same. I am changed as his usual behavior hardly mattered to me. I smiled. And lied down. And I felt him. Close to my heart. Saying.... "Chunna hai tu mera. Aur humesha chunna hi rahega." I closed my eyes. Lucky eye lashed. They can hug each other.  I have no one. I got up, picked up my phone, and decided, my decision was wrong. I can be with him, and will always be. And thats what made me stronger today.


Love hurts. But loneliness hurts the most. I am no more lonely. I am sure, someone, somewhere, loves me more than I could ever thought of. And thinking of me all the way. I am happy.








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